personal development — a very bad thing.

In search of Paradise you go to hell and spending decades in the battle with the demons that came up with himself. A dubious pleasure. Jed McKenna in the book "Spiritually incorrect enlightenment" clearly describes this process. I recommend to read.

I Thought that the urge for self-development is also that the call depressed and suffering for years. Who cares?

Describe, as I'm going through the process, I think, is growth.

1) Starts with the deep discouragement. Longing. Depression. For example, I have in the chest there is a hole. A funnel with a howl spins me on negative emotions.

2) Connects the mind, who is looking for excuse emotional state. It works according to the formula: "You feel bad because...". Instead of the ellipsis is substituted for the reason that you can't fix, or theoretically could, but that would entail the complete destruction of your current life. At this stage the main thing is not to fall for the trick of the mind and not to believe the "evidence" he discovers. Thoughts under emotion do not trust.

3) the Incubation period of suffering. Betwixt.

4) Healing dream. At a certain level of training you can clearly remember the dreams and can interpret them. For example, I dream of the pyramid, on which we climb. The analogy of self-development. Suddenly this pyramid is flipped upside the head. Now it has no top or bottom.

Indeed, in space, in space, there is no concept of top and bottom, left-right. What, then, is moving up??? In the case of the pyramid is the movement from the base of the pyramid to its apex (in society it is a departure from the gray mass, but not the lifting). The situation is compounded by the fact that the pyramid starts to rotate and it is not to get off. This whirlwind caused by the fact that the night was reading a book by jed McKenna, where he said that life is a carousel. You don't get off until it stops. But in the dream there himself jed McKenna. He goes by me, like Jesus on the water, on bare space, and leads by the hand a boy. I'm still on the spinning pyramid without the top and bottom. Pyramid, thanks to the Explorer McKenna stabiliziruemost. Wake up.

the Following dream inspired by depressive thoughts, trapped in four walls and an urgent need to travel. In the dream, are locked in a small dark room-prison. Below will not run away, I put grandfather was a psychiatrist sitting on a chair. Judging by his appearance, he spent in this room my whole life. He guessed my thoughts and said that he has a suspicion: "This is not a prison, and... photo Studio". What are you thinking grandpa? Basically, now I understand that his remark was logical. Dark room for developing negatives of life. Carry out an escape.

this is my personality in the dream for some reason, no thinking, only feeling. Therefore, moving to touch the length and breadth of space. Feel doors, stairs, trembling underground, suddenly there is a vision. I'm somewhere on the market in Thailand see in color Sizzling frying pans of food. A kaleidoscope of images and Wake up. In the chest still felt a hole.

5) Vortex.
the kids to the Park. Roll them on the carousel. Here they are floating in the Indian river of life. In the hands of a paddle, but from them nothing depends, because the river stream and the stream itself is a boat.

we have Some kind of transpersonal children's Park in Krasnodar is obtained. If you think you can decode each attraction in terms of human life. Aimless movement in a circle.

Remember that Vlade daughter turned 7 years old and can ride in the adult attraction "the Whirlwind". Wife to join her, and they reeled together.

I guard the son Levu and the youngest daughter of nick it is not clear what. Decide himself to ride the whirlwind. When it was done last time? Ten or twenty years ago?

the Vortex begins to spin. I immediately nauseated. And why I got into this adventure? In the chest there is pressure as when riding on a swing. Close your eyes and think about the theory of relativity. At this moment, for the Whirlwind I don't run, and are still, and I are moving towards the wind (this is where else could the name "Whirlwind"). In the mind a feeling of emptiness and headwind (in lucid dreams similar feeling happens when moving between dreams). Suddenly head heard two bangs.

These POPs, I show that some problem was resolved. Or maybe all the more prosaic, opened somewhere in Vienna after spasm... the Whirlwind stops, I go out with him and feel that there is no hole in his chest anymore. Like its plug from the bath was closed. And obsessive thoughts that had caused this hole, is also gone. Oh, how! Attraction "the Whirlwind" as a means for self-development. And why not? If technique is "delicate glow" works, why a similar effect cannot cause promotion on the carousel?

somewhere I even read that the acceleration of the swing or Elevator causes a shift of the assemblage point in Castaneda. Suddenly some element in the body, responsible for our emotional state, something to do with acceleration? Or you can explain simply — the release of adrenaline or other hormones in the ride. Anyway, this particular day, the depressive thoughts and feeling the hole in his chest disappeared. Will see what happens next.

According to the above 5 steps and I'm going development. Disappear as a result of the obsession with whole class! I no longer care about topics that had previously not been released. Changed eating habits. The texts of articles become more detailed.

For a detailed study of what happens on the path of self-development, I recommend the books of jed McKenna. You can download as one file at: http://www.klex.ru/qbc.

Success!

PS
And remember that self-development is not a pleasant walk in the Park. This is a place for "Whirlwind."